I have severe CPTSD that controls every hour of every day.I have been iscolated for a very long time.I was made to appear crazy so they could take advantage of me.I feel the world sees me this way and I cant even verbally get the abuse out,I do believe I have damage to the brain.i cant concentrate or remember what I’m doing.i cant remember a 4 digit pin to unlock my house door.I need help now but meds don’t help and I’m concidering ending it all,I cant take it.I need just one good person to talk to that understands.im scared!! Of everything!!

It is natural for children to want a relationship with their parents. We were at one time highly dependent on them for survival. It may be that you need to seek a therapist to help you work all this out. Have you searched for a trauma-informed therapist? You’ll have better luck, I think. Please take good care of yourself. Shirley

I’m suffering severally and alone.Both parents are narcissistic with sociopathic behavior I went no contact in 2018 I live alone and I’m very iscolated.Instead of getting better I feel I’m going backwards and I’m at the point I feel their abuse has finally drove me to insanity.People think they know the damage of this behavior but u cant even find words for the hell they put u threw.Im 47 and I don’t know what to do anymore,I dont wanna be alone.I tell someone and they think your just depressed and go to a therapist.Therapist don’t even understand.Unless u are lucky enough to find one that has first hand knowledge then forget it.Its a very dark place to be and I don’t know how to move past.I have a dog that I love dearly but at times I feel that she is to much responsibility for me,I cant Handel any stress,negativity any sort of responsibility.Do I just give in and find my out? What does one do when the damage is beyond help? I cant take anymore.I don’t wanna be alone because of my own thoughts but years of isolation has left me completely alone.When I wake its overwhelming,I have read that cortisol levels are highest when waking,its almost to much.i desperately don’t wanna be alone,I can’t turn my thoughts off,I cant funtion.This abuse is pure evil,pure hell! Because my father is covert and hides behind this curtain sometimes showing affection I still wanna wanna run to him for support,I have to remind myself it’s only a mask,close your ears and open your eyes.They are both pure evil.i think there is a trama bond and I’ve been abused to the point where I feel very much like a child and need them.i know it sounds crazy,all I know Is nobody understands unless you have danced with the devil themselves.How do I continue to love and want their love even thou they destroyed my entire life.

Dr. Jay Reid is professionally educated accredited psychologist on YouTube. He is excellent. I’ve seen very few YouTube channels with real professionals. It makes such a huge difference. Good luck!

I as well. I was made out to be the abuser, and saddled with fictitious charges of domestic violence. The only mistake I kept repeating was trying to hold her accountable.

Thank you. All my partner does especially lately and re finances is lie .lie lie. He fails to remember that I know. He has told and shown me the money and when I ask why he hasn’t paid last year’s overdue taxes (which he would promise he was going to do every single day) are now in demand by Assessor and once again I’m in fear of losing my house. He hasn’t paid any taxes this year either. Daily he promises to do so but if I bring it up he lies and tells me there’s no money. He’billy’s me screams makes angry animal fierce faces at me etc. I’m much older I. 69 and fell prey to him 6 years ago. After he moved in apps 6 mos later he pulled away from. Me citing c PTSD and did. It’s been a sexless relationship for 6 yrs. I’ve tried everything in my power believe me as. Former psych major I’d never heard of these dx so I’ve been reading up ever since. There’s nothing dve not done except leave. It’s my house. He’d kill me.