We have similar backstories with the DV, Narcissistic Abuse- It truly is insidious and twists up our sense of self in the years of spending our lives trying to conform to the needs of the narcissist so not to continue our walk on eggshells. The trail provided me with the space to discern my authenticity, without any interruptions/avoidance opportunities from the external world. There are so many like us who have found healing in that nervous system regulation, skill building, and deep self exploration that comes along with solo hiking.

I have screws in my ankle which I always felt would prohibit me from being as active as I am, because my ankle doesn’t have the flexibility most have. As I have with all of the other obstacles, just sort of accepted what it is and worked with it the best I could, now you’d never know there there is hardware in that ankle for the most part. You will, as you have with all of these other amazing accomplishments, rise. I have no doubts- you know the way to heal yourself, you listened to your body, pushed your psychological and physical limits, you confronted yourself and your experiences on the trail. Funny how you didn’t need for anyone to save you- the mountain spirits (canyon spirits in your case) seem to have helped you to save yourself! Courageous. Brave. Beautiful! Thank you so much for your vulnerability, as you know, it helps others along their path!