Thank-you for reading my writing and taking the time to leave a comment as well. I appreciate hearing your story, and I’m happy to hear it sounds like you’ve got some good support. Yes the progress can be slow, I know that myself, but it does happen, and I too am glad to see those little improvements over time. I wish you all the best on your journey.

Thank you for sharing your experience. It’s amazing what those little words “what happened” can do. I’m glad you’ve had people ask them! I used to think that I would never be able to have real time recognitions of being triggered, but thankfully I was wrong. I do now some times, though I’m still learning. 💕

Thanks Lisa for your kind comment, and for sharing your experience as well. It is a lot of work no doubt, but I do have lots of support and same as you I have some pretty amazing days. Glad to hear you connected with my writing. All the best.

I was engaged in EMDR early on in therapy, and it was a horrible experience. It was nearly seven years of being activated, sent home activated, and then doing it all over again two days later. I was in such a state that I ended up losing my job after a very successful thirty years. I lost my car, filed bankruptcy, lost my home, and suffered a completely new trauma from all that. What I’ve since learned is that the proper groundwork for safety had not been established prior to the start of EMDR, and that my therapist did not follow the established protocol. She inserted her own presence into my recollections as a safe person, but that never brought me back to feeling safe.
So…make sure you learn about EMDR, research therapists who use it, and interview those therapists. If they tell you to think of a safe place or person, and then say you’re ready, they are not the right therapist. You need to be able to access that safe person with success when you are triggered, and that takes time to establish. Also, question anyone who claims EMDR will heal you. EMDR WAS established for PTSD, a single incidence trauma, and I’ve been told that for CPTSD it can aid you, but may not be as effective. Also, try reading about bottom-up therapy and polyvagal theory. Good luck.

Hi, My name is Jennifer. I’m a 40yr old with Complex Trauma/C-PTSD. I have been doing EMDR for a year now. It is LIFE SAVING & LIFE CHANGING! I will admit it tool quite a while for me to start actual EMDR sessions bc there is so much ground work that has to be done. Developing a safe place and method to calming down if triggered especially after the sessions. I highly recommend you find someone who’s been doing it for a little while. I found that with the hand tappers and light bar simultaneously it has profound success. It is however totally draining. After a session I’m so drained I literally can’t figure out how to use the microwave or make dinner for my son without extreme focus and so much effort on my brain’s part bc it feels like complete mush and processing thoughts and actions is very difficult for me. My husband cones home early and leaves with our son for a few hrs while I’m in session. He has to make dinner and get him to bed bc nothings working upstairs in my head. But I feel so much lighter and floating everytime a trauma gets healed. I wish I had found this sooner.