Hi Cyndi,

I started to understand what’s happening with me by reading this, appreciate it a lot. I have very similar feelings and situations of what you’ve experienced. Not sure where to begin, but I will find my way to treat this further. Wish me luck!

Cheers!

Lauren, I’m glad my blog was a help to you. I really love what you said about being successful in the workplace over the past 20 years. Trauma survivors can be successful in the workplace, but as you and I have experienced, one thing can open up a zip file of memories from past trauma that we tried to put behind us without resolving, and then it gets in the way. The place where we felt most confident and competent becomes a place of emotional upheaval. I want to encourage you to invest in yourself by getting the healing you need to move through your trauma. I’m here to help if you need me. You are not alone.

Your blog on CPTSD in the workplace was exactly what I needed. Before last week I had never heard of the term “emotional flashback,” nor did I know that was what I was experiencing at work the last month. Having been in various manager and executive positions for the last 20 years of my career, I’ve been quite successful professionally but suddenly felt horribly incompetent and completely unable to handle my unexpected emotions that were totally out of proportion to the incident that triggered them. I had no idea that the recent trauma I experienced over last summer had reopened old, unhealed childhood wounds that I was completely unprepared to handle. So thankful to have find this site and your blog posts – it’s a lifesaver!

Frankie, I am both happy and sad that you were able to relate to what I wrote. I am sad for the wee little baby whose mother was taken from him and didn’t have anyone to show up for him and regulate him. I am sad for the boy and teenager that had to fight so hard to be heard. I am sad for the man that had to raise his voice to get his point across. You didn’t deserve any of that. I see you. I hear you. YOU MATTER. I care. You are not alone!!!

Thanks again, Cindi. For letting me know I’m not alone.

Thank you for your kind words. You are in good company.