Comments on: What Suicide Looks Like For Me https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/ The Foundation for Post-Traumatic Healing and Complex Trauma Research Sat, 01 Oct 2022 17:29:29 +0000 hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=6.9.4 By: Destiny Mowadeng https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17048 Sat, 01 Oct 2022 17:29:29 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17048 In reply to Marolyn.

I responded to this in another comment of my own about a week ago. I am largely still learning how to reply I guess as I don’t often get comments. As per the comment left prior thank you for your comment on the post!

]]> By: Destiny Mowadeng https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17047 Sat, 01 Oct 2022 17:26:51 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17047 Thanks for sharing with me. I am sorry for your loss. People often forget that people are making a decision to end it because they can no longer take it. My entire existence still now feels dirty and shameful so I can relate. I question the reality of how bad it really was for me as a child when I look back knowing I wanted to end it that young. Unfortunately when I think about what it might look like after all I see are people hovering around “loved ones” saying I am better off and at least the burden is lifted from them plus “loved ones complaining about the mess I left behind and what people will think of them for not stopping me!

]]> By: Destiny Mowadeng https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17046 Sat, 01 Oct 2022 17:17:43 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17046 In reply to Nadine Rhodda.

No need to say anything. I think I understand/get it. You are welcome.

]]> By: Destiny Mowadeng https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17045 Sat, 01 Oct 2022 17:14:41 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17045 In reply to Jesse.

Thanks for sharing part of your story with me. I can relate to feeling completely alone with it. Personally speaking, I never found either CBT or DBT at all helpful. Being someone who is disabled and limited in the ways/ means. I had a horrible experience with a therapist when disclosing due to obvious physical limitations. Nobody really saw the childhood experience for what they were with respect to suicide so they went on overlooked and largely ignored.

]]> By: ginger https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17027 Thu, 29 Sep 2022 15:11:01 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17027 Thank you so much for writing this. I’m not physically disabled, but I have a lot of childhood trauma and wanted to die starting at about 7. It feels shameful somehow, and difficult to really look at. Reading your thoughts, it has a powerful effect to feel understood in dark feelings, to at least some extent. I appreciated the bluntness of your words, when it is usually considered trangressive to speak this way. Recently someone who was an old friend, killed himself. I was surprised at the effect it had on me. I feel sad that he must have been unable to find enough redeeming qualities to this world, to want to stay in it longer. And it makes me want to keep trying to latch onto those redeeming qualities, myself.

]]> By: Nadine Rhodda https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17007 Tue, 27 Sep 2022 21:22:41 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17007 I don’t know what to say except thank you.

]]> By: Jesse https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-17003 Tue, 27 Sep 2022 18:03:01 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-17003 this article couldn’t have been written at a better time for me! I’ve recently tried out a few sessions with a new therapist, and the same problems around this issue came up. most therapists I’ve seen don’t seem to understand the idea of a young child being suicidal. like you shared in your article, I was also too young to fully grasp the concept of death when these thoughts started. one of my earliest memories was of me trying to find some sort of way to will my body into death, as I believed that if I was in enough despair it would happen. I haven’t had much success with treatment as the usual methods of helping people cope with these thoughts come with the assumption that there was a time before they existed— as if a month or two of CBT can undo a lifetime of learning that death is preferable living. I guess that’s why there’s such an emphasis on finding trauma-informed therapists!

not that I’m happy to see another person with a similar experience, but I’m relieved to see someone else talking about this. thank you for sharing your experience and thoughts on this matter 🙂

]]> By: Destiny https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-16941 Fri, 23 Sep 2022 03:30:32 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-16941 In reply to Marolyn.

Thanks for your comment on my post!

]]> By: Marolyn https://cptsdfoundation.org/2022/09/22/what-suicide-looks-like-for-me/#comment-16938 Thu, 22 Sep 2022 15:30:34 +0000 https://cptsdfoundation.org/?p=244776#comment-16938 Oh my gosh I can understand how you felt in those moments of dispair. I’m not physically disable but share what you went through having abusive parents. As a child we need support from our parents. It’s difficult to get and hard to understand why we weren’t gifted with warm loving parents but it happens. I’m glad you have help and I’m sure along with that come good and bad days. I still get mine but I understand life better now and getting mental health support from therapy helped alot. Gray days still happrn but I am able to cope with them now.

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