I’m so sorry to hear about your story and trauma. I hope you’re feeling much better as none of this is your fault.
Seek healing in that. God bless. 🙏🏻

One of my Marine buddies even set me up with one of his friends, but couldn’t force myself to go beyond “second base.” At least the young woman wasn’t upset with me. She could tell I was really struggling.

I would learn why, 24 years later. Dissociative amnesia was keeping me from my childhood. I don’t count rape as losing one’s virginity. Or else I had mine stolen at age 2.

For a handful of years I just accepted that sex simply wasn’t for me. Not that I didn’t want to have sex, or make love with a loving partner, just that those things alluded me.

I was married for 19 years, to an abusive woman. Sex with her, was always more like work, like performing one of your job duties, you know? And it was always on her schedule, no matter when I tried to initiate it. This doesn’t take into account any of the sexual assault/abuse from her, just “normal” sex.

We’ve been divorced since Jan 2019. I haven’t had any kind of sex since mid-2017. She’s remarried 2 years now, and I haven’t even had 1 date.