Hi Chad-

Thank you so much for reading and for taking the time to share this. Four years into the healing journey is no small thing, that takes strength, even if it doesn’t always feel like it.

I really get what you’re saying about the guilt. It can stick around, even when we know better now. But the fact that you’ve made the effort to circle back with your kids, that’s huge. That kind of repair work is something many of us never got growing up. It’s one of the most human and loving things a parent can do.

It’s reassuring to know I’m not alone in this messily beautiful work of healing. I’m really grateful you shared this with me.

Thanks for your article. I’ve been on a healing journey with C-PTSD for the past four years. I appreciate you sharing that at times your emotions can get the best of you with your kids. As I look back over the years I can see many times when I let my emotions get the best of me and to this day I struggle with guilt about my shortcomings but each time I have tried to circle back with my kids and apologize. I think you are right, it lets your kids know you are human.

Thank you, Bequi

You’ve lived through, and with, so much. The way you’re now modeling emotional honesty for your kids and grandkids is beautiful and, frankly, world-changing.

I’m so sorry for the loss of your grandson. Grief on top of trauma can feel like being asked to carry a mountain after you’ve already crossed a desert. But you’re still showing up, with your heart open, and that’s everything.

Sending deep respect and warmth your way.

Ironically, my husband is a Vietnam Combat Veteran and I was a Wildland firefighter for over 30 years, retiring soon after my diagnosis. All 4 children are now adults, three are first responders and one an Afghanistan Combat veteran so being tough and pulling up your bootstraps has been our family lineage – until now.

I now show up with every bit of my authenticity and vulnerability with my kids, showing them that not hiding our deepest emotions is indeed the epitome of true courage and bravery. It has not been easy but hopefully, much like yourself, it helps pave a better and more authentic future for my kids and grandkids.

Thank you again, I always appreciate your articles.