The lens shifts, and then you see it.

The statue you’ve been driving past every day becomes a monument. You suddenly see the craftsmanship the sculptor put into his creation. The smooth curves and perfect angles. A museum becomes a landmark people travel to visit. The queues are a testament to the attraction inside.

Your surroundings aren’t boring any longer because they hold value for people. Maybe you should value them too?

Look around you on your next commute to work. What do you see?

Familiarity doesn’t have to mean boring.

Now that many families are on vacation, I see the world with a different lens. I see the tourists flock to the beaches and flood the landmarks in cities. I see them pull up in droves to enter state parks. The campsites are teeming with brightly colored tents and RV’s. Their faces bring an energetic vibe of awe and wonder to the places.

Try to see your city/town/area with a different lens. Now what do you see?

I like to pretend with my kids that we have different roles; like we are detectives, zookeepers, or tourists for a day. It’s become a fun game to help my kids see the world through a different lens, and we have a lot of fun doing it.

I love the outdoors and explore it with my kids now that summer is here. Just because there’s no school doesn’t mean that learning grinds to a halt. There’s so much to learn and appreciate in the natural world.

I teach my kids to always be inquisitive and ask questions. If you don’t ask, then you won’t know, right?

My kids have learned to value moments. The small, often tiny details in nature that get missed but are beautiful to watch.

Have you ever seen the moment a dragonfly catches its first flight? The way it unravels its exquisite wings and holds them up to the sun’s rays to dry before flying off. I captured it with my camera, and when I zoom in, the silky, delicate segments show up.

My kids and I were lucky to explore nature when we spotted that dragonfly. It was years ago, but my kids still remember the moment and ask to see the photo.

Have you ever sat and watched the turtles hatch on the beach and made their way to the ocean for the first time?

Have you seen the sun rise and set over the ocean? The way the light catches on the edge of the water is stunning. Listen to the sound of the waves washing onto the shore.

When you’re next on the trails, stop talking for a moment and listen to the quiet. After a few moments, your head will be full of gentle sounds from the forest as your senses take over.

Close your eyes and let nature draw you in — just for a moment. Can you hear the birds sing to each other as gentle branches sway above your head?

Have you ever seen a deer in a meadow just outside the protection of the trees?

These are moments that are truly incredible, but you must be open enough to see them. If you blink, you might miss that dragonfly, bird, or creature.

What will you see next time you’re outdoors? Take the time this summer to see something new.

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Fear breathes unrest and chaos into our world.

The news channels are bursting with horrific events of death and misery from all corners of the world. Some days I find it impossible to avoid all the horrors of our reality.

When I find myself overwhelmed, I turn to the things I love.

I’m a survivor of trauma and child abuse. I’ve already lived with fear and control from violence from the adults around me. The feeling of living under threat isn’t a life I want for myself, or anyone around me.

I left everyone I knew as a teen.

I turned away from the chaos and chose the simpler things in life to find healing. I found my own peace.

Love is all around us, but you have to open your heart to embrace it.

Where do you turn when your life feels overwhelming? Or do you choose a person or an activity when life gets too much?

I turn to nature because it grounds me and nurtures me in a way no other place can. Nature regulates my circadian rhythm. It makes me centered and calm.

I can sit on the beach, dig my feet into the sand, and listen to the gentle waves lapping the beach for hours.

I turn to the hiking trails nearby and immerse myself in natural sounds.

Once I’m away from the traffic jams, the noise of the city, and people arguing, I find my peace.

Where do you go for your peace?

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When Your Nervous System Needs a Moment

Bellamy wiped down another table, trying to ignore the growing tightness in their chest. The lunch rush at the diner had been particularly chaotic today—too many sounds, too many demands, a customer who reminded them of someone from their past. The familiar buzzing sensation started spreading through their limbs.

Not now. Please not now.

Their coworker Maylyn noticed their hands trembling slightly as they stacked plates.

“Hey, I’ve got this section. Take five if you need it,” she whispered.

Bellamy nodded gratefully and headed toward the bathroom, their safe haven during shifts when everything became too much. Once inside a stall, they leaned against the cool tile wall and took a shaky breath.

It’s happening again. I’m not in danger. My body is trying to protect me.

Working With, Not Against Your Nervous System

What Bellamy is experiencing isn’t weakness—it’s their nervous system doing exactly what it was designed to do: protect them. For people with Complex PTSD, the brain’s alarm system has been calibrated through painful experiences to be extra vigilant.

Your body isn’t broken when it responds this way. It’s actually trying to keep you safe based on what it’s learned from the past. The key isn’t fighting against these responses or powering through them—it’s working with your nervous system, acknowledging its efforts to protect you, and gently guiding it back to a state where you can function.

When These Techniques Are Most Helpful

These techniques are first-aid tools for your nervous system – they’re not replacements for long-term therapy but can help you function in the moment. They’re especially helpful for:

Non-specific anxiety or panic: When your nervous system is overactivated but there isn’t an immediate concrete threat that needs addressing.

Trauma-related distress: When you’re experiencing flashbacks, emotional flooding, or body sensations that are connected to past trauma rather than present danger. These are situations where your body is responding as if you’re in danger even when you’re currently safe.

If you’re experiencing dissociation or feeling numb: Start with gentle touch (e.g., rubbing your palms together or tracing your arm) before trying colder or stronger sensations. Grounding techniques that provide gentle sensory input are usually most helpful when feeling disconnected.

For situations involving concrete present concerns (waiting for important test results, preparing for a difficult conversation, facing potential job loss, or dealing with relationship issues), these techniques can still help regulate your nervous system so you can think more clearly. However, they aren’t meant to replace addressing the actual situation. In these cases:

1. Use these techniques first to calm your physiological response
2. Once regulated, you can then engage in problem-solving, decision-making, or seeking support for the actual situation
3. Remember that anxiety about real-life concerns is valid and sometimes appropriate

If negative self-beliefs are dominant (thoughts like “I’m worthless,” “I’m a failure,” “No one cares about me”), combine regulation techniques with gentle reality testing once you’re calmer. Ask yourself: “What evidence supports or contradicts this belief?” and “How would I respond to a friend who felt this way?”

Important note: If any technique feels activating or increases your distress, simply stop and try another. We all respond differently, and what works today might not work tomorrow.

The techniques below are arranged in order of what your body can typically respond to first when in distress. Physical and sensory techniques come before cognitive ones because your thinking brain often can’t fully engage until your body feels safer. If you have physical limitations, adapt techniques: use your breath instead of tapping, or visualize sensations instead of physical pressure.

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15 Quick Bathroom Stall Resets

Physical Regulation First

1. Cold Water Facial Reset

What it is: Splashing cold water specifically on your forehead, around your eyes, and cheeks.

Why it works: This triggers your mammalian dive reflex—an automatic response that quickly slows your heart rate, reduces breathing rate, and shifts your nervous system from fight-or-flight toward rest-and-digest. It’s like hitting a biological reset button.

How to do it: Cup cold water in your hands and press it against your face, especially around your eyes and cheeks, for 15-30 seconds. If you’re in a stall without immediate access to a sink, you can use a cold water bottle pressed against these areas, or take several paper towels, wet them with cold water before entering the stall, and press them against your face, focusing on the areas around your eyes, forehead, and cheeks. While not as effective as running water, the coolness can still help activate the calming response.

2. Vagus Nerve Stimulation

What it is: Simple exercises that activate your vagus nerve—the superhighway of your parasympathetic (“rest and digest”) nervous system.

Why it works: Your vagus nerve helps regulate many bodily functions including heart rate and stress response. Stimulating it sends calming signals throughout your body.

How to do it:

• Hum softly to yourself for 30 seconds (feel the vibration in your throat)
• Make the same motion and muscle engagement as if you were gargling water, but without liquid – just the throat movement and gentle vibration
• At the back of your head where your skull meets your neck (about 2 inches up from where your neck begins), use your thumbs or index and middle fingers to press gently for 30-60 seconds on either side of your spine, applying gentle pressure and small circular motions

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3. Butterfly Hug

What it is: A self-administered form of bilateral stimulation (moving attention back and forth between sides of the body).

Why it works: This technique, inspired by EMDR therapy, helps integrate emotional processing by engaging both brain hemispheres and provides gentle, rhythmic self-touch that can be grounding.

How to do it: Cross your arms over your chest, hands on opposite shoulders. Alternate gentle taps on each shoulder while taking slow breaths. Tap at a slow, steady rhythm – about one tap per second or slightly slower. This isn’t rapid tapping but a deliberate, rhythmic movement that allows you to feel each tap fully. Even just 30 seconds can be helpful if you’re short on time.

4. Starfish Breathing

What it is: A visual breathing technique using your hand.

Why it works: The combination of touch, visual focus, and controlled breathing accesses multiple sensory channels, giving your overwhelmed brain something concrete to focus on while naturally slowing your breath.

How to do it: Hold one hand up with fingers spread. Using your other hand’s index finger, trace up your thumb as you inhale, down as you exhale. Continue around each finger, syncing breath with the movement. Imagine you’re tracing the outline of your hand on paper – going up the outside of each finger as you inhale, and down the inside of the finger as you exhale.

5. Progressive Muscle Relaxation (Quick Version)

What it is: A rapid tension-and-release exercise moving through major muscle groups.

Why it works: Muscle tension is a physical component of anxiety. By deliberately tensing and releasing muscles, you break the physical anxiety cycle and send safety signals to your brain.

How to do it: Tense and release these areas for 5 seconds each: feet, calves, thighs, buttocks, stomach, hands, arms, shoulders, neck, and face. For your face, scrunch up all facial muscles tightly – furrow your brow, squeeze your eyes shut, purse your lips, and clench your jaw – hold for 5 seconds, then release completely, feeling the tension melt away.

6. Hair Tugging/Scalp Massage

What it is: Gentle stimulation of the scalp through light pulling or massage.

Why it works: Your scalp has many nerve endings, and stimulating them can reduce muscle tension while providing sensory input that draws you back into your body when you’re starting to disconnect.

How to do it: Using your fingertips, apply firm pressure to your scalp and make small circular motions. Or gently grasp sections of hair near the roots and apply slight tension for a few seconds.

7. Acupressure Points

What it is: Applying pressure to specific points on your body that can help reduce stress and anxiety.

Why it works: These points connect to meridians (energy pathways) in traditional medicine and stimulating them may influence your nervous system and trigger relaxation responses.

How to do it: These two points are particularly effective and easy to find:

• Press the point between your eyebrows (at the center, sometimes called the ‘third eye’ point) with your index or middle finger, applying firm pressure for 30-60 seconds
• Press the spot between your thumb and index finger (the webbing) using the thumb and index finger of your opposite hand for 30-60 seconds

Optional additional points if you have time:

• Press the center of your palm with the thumb of your opposite hand for 30-60 seconds
• Press the point three finger-widths below your belly button with gentle pressure for 30-60 seconds

8. EFT Tapping Sequence

What it is: A simplified version of Emotional Freedom Techniques that involves tapping on specific meridian points.

Why it works: The physical tapping sends activating signals to the amygdala (your brain’s alarm center) while you’re in a safe environment, helping to recalibrate its threat response.

How to do it: Begin by tapping the “karate chop” point (the outer edge of your hand, below your little finger) while saying a setup phrase that acknowledges your feelings: “Even though I’m feeling [anxious/overwhelmed/scared], I deeply and completely accept myself.” Repeat this three times, then while taking slow breaths, use your fingertips to tap these points 5-7 times each, briefly naming the feeling (“this anxiety,” “this overwhelm”) as you tap:

• Top of the head
• Eyebrow (inner edge)
• Side of the eye
• Under the eye
• Under the nose
• Chin
• Collarbone
• Under the arm (about 4 inches down from armpit)
• Inside of wrists

9. Donna Eden’s Celtic Weave

What it is: A movement that crosses energy over the midline of your body.

Why it works: This technique helps reorganize your body’s energy systems, particularly when they feel scattered or fragmented during distress.

How to do it: The complete Celtic Weave involves:

1. Cross your hands in front of you at the wrists
2. Interlace your fingers
3. Roll your hands inward toward your body and up under your chin
4. Continue lifting until your interlaced fingers rest on your chest
5. Take a deep breath
6. On the exhale, separate your hands and sweep them out and around your body as if tracing your energy field

A simplified version: Stand and cross your arms in front of you, hands on opposite shoulders. Then open your arms wide. Repeat this crossing and opening motion 5-7 times, breathing deeply.

For a complete demonstration, searching “Donna Eden Celtic Weave” on YouTube will provide visual guidance. Even the simplified crossing motion can be helpful when a full demonstration isn’t available.

Moving Toward Mental Regulation

10. Quick Sensory Grounding (5-4-3-2-1)

What it is: A technique that uses your five senses to anchor you to the present moment.

Why it works: When panic or flashbacks hijack your brain, sensory awareness redirects neural activity to the present instead of past trauma or future fears.

How to do it: Name 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell (or like to smell), and 1 thing you can taste (or like to taste).

11. Box Breathing

What it is: A simple, structured breathing pattern.

Why it works: Controlling your breath directly influences your autonomic nervous system, telling your body it’s safe to relax. The counting gives your mind something to focus on besides fear.

How to do it: Inhale for a count of 4, hold for 4, exhale for 4, hold for 4. Repeat for at least 4 cycles.

12. Body Boundary Reinforcement

What it is: Physically reinforcing awareness of where your body begins and ends.

Why it works: During dissociation, your sense of physical boundary can blur. This exercise reestablishes those boundaries through touch and attention.

How to do it: Starting at your head, firmly trace the outline of your body with your hands. Apply pressure as you move down your face, neck, shoulders, arms, torso, legs, and feet. Say internally: “This is me. This is where I begin and end.”

13. Orienting Exercise

What it is: Deliberately looking around your environment for signs of safety.

Why it works: When your trauma response activates, you’re responding to danger that likely isn’t present now. This exercise helps your brain update its threat assessment.

How to do it: Slowly scan your surroundings, naming specific things that signal safety: “The door locks. I can leave anytime. No one can enter without my knowing. The floor is solid beneath me.”

14. Thought Defusion

What it is: Creating distance between yourself and distressing thoughts.

Why it works: This technique helps you recognize that thoughts aren’t reality and don’t require immediate action or belief, especially trauma-triggered thoughts.

How to do it: Notice a distressing thought and try one of these:

• Mentally prefix it with “I’m having the thought that…” or “I’m noticing I’m having the thought that…”
• Imagine the thought written on water or clouds passing by
• Thank your mind: “Thanks, mind, for trying to protect me”
• If it feels appropriate (and only if it doesn’t feel dismissive of your experience), giving the thought a different voice can create helpful distance
• Visualize thoughts as leaves floating down a stream or text scrolling on a screen

15. Non-Gaslighting Affirmations

What it is: Brief, truthful statements that acknowledge both your distress and your capacity to move through it.

Why it works: Unlike toxic positivity or denial, these statements honor your experience while gently redirecting your focus toward resources and resilience.

How to do it: Repeat one of these (or create your own that feels true):

• “This feeling is temporary. I’ve survived it before.”
• “This feeling will pass.”
• “My body is trying to protect me. I am responding normally to abnormal experiences.”
• “I am here now, not then.”
• “I can feel this and still take the next breath.”
• “My nervous system is loud right now. I can listen without obeying.”

What May Be Counterproductive

Some common suggestions can actually make things worse when you’re in a trauma response:

1. Telling yourself to “calm down” or “get over it” Why it’s unhelpful: This creates internal conflict and shame, adding another layer of stress when your nervous system is already overwhelmed.

2. Complicated visualization exercises Why it’s unhelpful: When in high distress, complex mental tasks can be impossible to follow and create more frustration.

3. Deep breathing without other regulation first Why it’s unhelpful: If you’re hyperventilating or in panic, focusing only on breath can sometimes increase awareness of breathing difficulties and worsen anxiety.

4. Positive affirmations that deny your experience Why it’s unhelpful: Statements like “I am completely calm and at peace” when you’re neither calm nor at peace can create a sense of gaslighting yourself.

5. Staying completely still when your body wants to move Why it’s unhelpful: Sometimes trauma responses include excess energy that needs physical discharge.

Remember

These techniques aren’t about “fixing” you, because you aren’t broken. They’re tools to communicate with a nervous system that’s doing exactly what it learned to do to keep you alive. With practice, these resets can become automatic responses that help you navigate a world that sometimes feels overwhelming.

After using any technique, take a moment to notice any shifts in your body or mind. You might quietly ask yourself: “What do I notice now? What do I need next?” This simple check-in honors your experience and builds your self-awareness.

For more comprehensive approaches to healing, consider exploring trauma-informed therapy, somatic experiencing, trauma-sensitive yoga, or similar modalities that address trauma responses through both body and mind.

Bellamy splashed cold water on their face, did a quick butterfly hug, and took four box breaths. The buzzing sensation began to recede. They whispered to their reflection: “This feeling is temporary. I’ve survived it before.”

And they had. They always did. Bellamy stepped back into the diner, their breath steady now, ready for the next moment—one reset at a time.

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Countless African households teach their children, from a very young age, to refrain from speaking. Phrases like “Just keep quiet,” or “Don’t cause trouble” echo through our lives, passed down as wisdom from those who came before us. On the surface, this advice seems mature and prudent.

Your quietness might damage your spirit instead of preserving love.

What if the very behaviors you learned to preserve calm (remaining silent, burying your emotions, and steering clear of conflict) are causing you to lose yourself?

People often misunderstand this route as a path to true tranquility. Over time, this lack of noise does not bring harmony; it breeds fear, resentment, rejection, and a deep, simmering anger.

Sometimes you observe yourself shrinking, evolving into a smaller version of who you were meant to be.

Your voice grows weaker until one day you wonder if you even have one.

This creeping feeling of inadequacy could cause you to distance from your true self, leading you to conclude that you’re not deserving of your own kindness and attention.

In many toxic homes, children grow into experts at appeasing their parents, sacrificing their own dreams, and even their happiness, just to feel accepted.

Guardians, especially mothers and wives, can become so consumed with caring for their families that their own ambitions and well-being slip away.

No matter where this people-pleasing or codependency begins, one truth remains: you cannot pour from an empty cup. One cannot share what one does not possess.

If you learned to swallow your feelings, and equate love with silence or relentless effort to win affection as a child, you set yourself on a path far from self-love.

We, as adults seeking love, often fall into cycles of codependency and people-pleasing, wherein we give, adapt, and sacrifice until our own identities become obscured.

This series will explore why so many of us become lost in our relationships, uncover the damaging habits forged in childhood, and examine how relying on others for validation traps us in harmful, normal cycles.

Suppositions and myths that lead to codependency.

My journey of recovering from childhood trauma led me to uncover a seldom-voiced truth:

So many of us stay in toxic relationships, sacrificing our true selves, because one persistent fear haunts us:

• What will people say?
• How will they see me?
• What will they think of me?

On the surface, you may appear cheerful and put together, but this silent fear eats away at us from the inside out.

Losing yourself in a relationship is never a sudden event. It’s a slow unraveling, thread by thread, until one day you barely recognize who you’ve become.

It seeps in through your self-perception, what you learned about love, and the patterns you witnessed as a child.

The way your caregivers expressed love during your childhood matters. The language you experienced as a child plays an important role.

The examples set by those around you– the words they spoke–these moments leave lasting imprints.

Many of us grew up with beliefs like:

“You have to endure in a relationship.”

“All men cheat” or “Women are not trustworthy.”

“One person must lead, the other must submit.”

“Two captains cannot be on one ship.”

These repeated messages, so common they feel like truth, become beliefs that shape our entire approach to love and connection.

Instead of teaching us that love is rooted in self-respect and boundaries, they condition us to see love as endless sacrifice.

My Personal Realization: When Love Meant Losing Myself

There was a chapter in my life when I truly believed that silence equaled love.
I thought that putting everyone else’s needs before my own was the highest form of love. My happiness, I thought, should be a reflection of everyone else’s contentment.

I felt responsible for everyone–except myself.

I became the fixer, the peacekeeper, always trying to make things work. It was the only way I knew to feel needed, valued, and loved.

But as I walked the long road to healing, I discovered something that changed everything:

Those were not acts of love at all.
They were trauma responses, survival patterns etched deep by years of emotional wounds.

That realization hurt, but it was also a turning point. It was the first time I began to see what true self-love could look like.

Many believe self-love is about occasional pampering, buying nice things, taking selfies, or treating yourself.

But real self-love runs much deeper; it’s about how we show up for ourselves every single day.

So What Is Codependency? (Simple Explanation)

Let’s break this down in a real, honest way, because so many are living it, even if they don’t yet have the word.

Codependency is when your sense of identity, worth, and emotional stability becomes tethered to someone else. You feel responsible for healing or fixing them, even when it breaks you in the process.

It means:

• You depend on others to feel okay about yourself.
• Your happiness is based on how they feel about you.
• You feel responsible for their emotions.
• You prioritize their needs above your own

You say words like:

“If they are happy, then I am okay.”

“If they are upset, I feel like I have done something wrong.”

“I need to fix things so everything can be okay again.”

“If I don’t do anything, things will fall apart.”

“I have to be there for them; I cannot fail them.”

“I am not enough; I need to get them to love me.”

Your life begins to revolve around someone else’s emotions, fulfilling their needs, fixing their problems, helping them, and seeking their approval to feel fulfilled.

You go the extra mile to make them happy, even if it means sacrificing your own happiness, your dreams, or even your identity.

You may dim your light so theirs can shine.

At that point, you no longer feel good enough on your own; you need their approval to feel secure.

It’s like walking through life uncovered, giving your last coat to everyone else, satisfied because they are warm, even as you shiver in the cold.

In simple terms:
Codependency is this: losing yourself, piece by piece, in your desperate attempt to hold on to someone else.

What Is People-Pleasing?

People-pleasing is the behavior that keeps codependency going.

It is when you constantly try to make others happy, even at your own expense.

It looks like:

• Saying “yes” when you want to say “no.”
• Keeping quiet to avoid conflict
• Ignoring your own needs so others can feel comfortable.
• Feeling guilty for putting yourself first
• Trying to be “good” so people will accept or love you.

In simple terms:
People-pleasing is what happens when you abandon your own needs, just to feel accepted by others.

What Is True Self-Love?

Self-love is not just pampering, taking pictures, or buying things.

Self-love is how you treat yourself on a daily basis.

It means:

• You respect your own feelings and needs.
• You don’t ignore yourself to please others.
• You speak up for yourself, even when it’s uncomfortable.
• You protect your peace without guilt.
• You choose what is healthy for you, not just what makes others happy.

In simple terms:
Self-love is choosing yourself, wholly and unapologetically, without shame or guilt.

How Codependency Makes You Lose Yourself in Relationships

No one wakes up and decides to lose themselves. It’s a slow process, rooted in what we were taught about love and worthiness.

1. Perhaps you were taught that love means enduring; no matter the cost.

You learned to tolerate instead of express.
To stay silent instead of speaking.

• You Start Living for Approval.

Your focus shifts from “Who am I?” to “How can I be accepted?” due to past painful experiences.

Maybe someone left you in the past, you grew up in a home where love was inconsistent, or someone hurt you deeply, and you still carry that wound or memory in your heart.

These old wounds shape how you see yourself, making you live for approval instead of embracing who you truly are.

• You feel responsible for everyone but yourself.

You carry everyone’s emotions, but neglect your own. You feel responsible for making everyone happy and for everything running smoothly, and that without you, they cannot be happy or okay.

Children who grew up taking adult responsibilities at a younger age are prone to this. So, in a relationship, they believe it is their responsibility to change every weakness and negative thing they see in their partner.

They become the parent in the relationship rather than a partner. They scold, complain, cry, and nag.

They stay in a toxic relationship, enduring, praying when they ought to walk away, and loving themselves.

Many will say, “Maybe if I behaved better, he or she would change.”

• You Confuse Being Needed with Being Loved.

You start to believe your value lies only in how much you can help, fix, or sacrifice for others.

Many struggle to break free from this cycle because the approval feels like a drug, without it, they don’t feel whole or enough. At the root of it all are unhealed trauma wounds, waiting to be faced.

• You Stop Listening to Yourself.

You stop asking what you feel, need, or want, and focus only on others.

What Is True Self-Love?

People pleasing is what you do.

Codependency is the pattern you are stuck in

Lack of self-love is the root of it all.

When you lack self-love, you:

• Seek validation from others.
• Struggle with boundaries
• Feel responsible for people’s emotions.

And so, the cycle repeats until you decide to break it.

You Don’t Have to Lose Yourself to Be Loved: A New Way Forward

Losing yourself in a relationship is not love, it’s a pattern called codependency. And you are not alone in it.

It is something many people learned from their upbringing, environment, and experiences.

But here’s the good news: you can unlearn these patterns.

• You can learn to love without losing yourself.
  You can learn to speak without fear.
  You can learn to exist fully in your relationships.

Start small today:

Speak up in one situation.

Say “no” without guilt.

Choose yourself in one decision.

Because the moment you choose to stop abandoning yourself…
That’s when you reclaim your power, and your healing truly begins.
This is Part 1 of the Codependency Series.

Let this be your first step toward becoming your most authentic, empowered self. Your best days are ahead!

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When Trauma Leaves You In Hibernation Mode

Have you withdrawn from the world, feeling disconnected, like you don’t know how to live a “normal” life? Watching everything happen from behind glass? Does stepping back outside and re-engaging feel impossible? You’re not alone. Many trauma survivors experience “functional freeze”—a protective shutdown affecting nearly every aspect of life.

Luis Goes Into Hibernation: A Story

Luis used to be known for his energy – always the first to suggest a weekend hike, quick to laugh, and passionate about his work as a school counselor.

What others didn’t see was how Luis had spent his childhood walking on eggshells around an unpredictable parent with addiction issues. He’d learned early to be hyper-aware of others’ emotions, to make himself useful, to prevent conflict. He’d worked hard to overcome these patterns as an adult, building a life where he felt relatively safe and valued. In this season, he found stability by spending time with his closest friend since childhood, Steven. And Luis was saving up to buy an engagement ring for his long time partner Francesca.

Then began the harsh winds. First, the cold front arrived with the systematic undermining by a new principal who questioned his every decision and took credit for Luis’s programs. Around the same time, Steven moved across the country, leaving Luis without their regular workouts, pool nights, and belly laughs.

Then, bringing the first hard frost, Francesca dumped Luis for a younger guitar player. And as winter truly set in, Luis was mugged while walking to clear his head in a quiet park he’d always come to for peace – an event his sister dismissed with “at least they didn’t hurt you.” His roommate Marco, while not unkind, was emotionally distant and uncomfortable with vulnerable conversations.

As temperatures plunged outside, Luis felt winter spreading within him too.

First came the fatigue – bone-deep and unrelenting. He started declining social invitations, his body too heavy to move beyond necessary tasks. “Just busy,” he’d text, watching the chat bubbles fade as friends eventually stopped asking.

By mid-winter, Luis’s apartment became his cave – a place of necessary retreat. His entire system powered down. The dirty dishes didn’t register. The unwashed laundry didn’t matter. Marco’s comments about “pulling your weight around here” barely penetrated the protective numbness.

When absolutely required to leave for work, Luis would muster everything he had to get by – then return to collapse in exhaustion. At night, he’d stare blankly at his phone for hours, scrolling past images of former friends at concerts and dinners, feeling a hollow ache but lacking the energy to even name the feeling.

His sister kept telling Luis to go on antidepressants, but she didn’t understand. This wasn’t depression. This was survival.

Spring arrived outside, but not within. Luis remained in his protective cave. He couldn’t remember what spring felt like anymore, couldn’t imagine ever wanting to feel the sun again.

In the depth of his hibernation, Luis couldn’t see that beneath the frozen surface, something was still alive, waiting for conditions to become safe enough to emerge. He just wanted to sleep and couldn’t even think about waking up.

Understanding Functional Freeze

What Luis is experiencing has a name in trauma psychology: functional freeze. Like hibernation in the natural world, functional freeze is a protective response to threatening conditions – not a character flaw or personal failing, but a natural adaptation when the environment becomes too harsh to navigate normally.

Functional freeze happens when your nervous system shifts into a state of profound shutdown (what therapists call a “dorsal vagal state”) to protect you from perceived threats that feel inescapable. It’s your body’s way of saying, “I can’t fight this danger, I can’t run from it, so I’ll preserve energy and disappear.”

This isn’t a conscious choice – it’s a neurobiological response controlled by your autonomic nervous system, specifically the oldest part of your vagus nerve. You didn’t decide to enter this state of withdrawal. Your body made this choice for you based on what it learned was necessary for survival.

A former marketing executive describes her experience: “After years of psychological abuse from my boss, I found myself unable to do the simplest things. I’d stare at my phone, knowing I should call friends back, but it felt like trying to lift a thousand pounds. Even making dinner decisions became overwhelming. I wasn’t depressed exactly – it was like my whole system had just… powered down.”

The Freeze Response Spectrum: From Fluctuating to Complete Shutdown

It’s important to understand that freeze responses exist on a spectrum, with several distinct forms that vary in intensity and impact on functioning. Understanding where you fall on this spectrum can help in recognizing your patterns and developing appropriate support strategies.

Fluctuating Freeze

Many trauma survivors experience fluctuating levels of freeze, moving between:

• Periods of greater engagement and capacity
• Episodes of deeper withdrawal and shutdown
• Cycles that may be affected by stress, triggers, or physical health

Partial or Situational Freeze

Some people experience freeze responses that are triggered only in specific situations or contexts:

• Freezing in social situations while functioning well alone
• Freezing at work but being more engaged at home
• Experiencing freeze only when confronted with specific triggers

Functional Freeze

The form of freeze described throughout this article is “functional freeze” – a state where the person maintains some minimal functioning while still experiencing profound shutdown in many areas of life. In functional freeze, a person can:

• Maintain basic survival needs, though often with difficulty
• Perform certain required tasks (like going to work) while collapsing afterward
• Engage in limited necessary interactions
• Appear “normal” to casual observers for brief periods

Complete Freeze and Tonic Immobility

At the most severe end of the spectrum is what might be called “non-functional freeze” or “complete freeze.” In this state, a person may be:

• Unable to maintain even basic self-care
• Physically immobilized for extended periods
• Completely withdrawn from all social contact
• Unable to work or engage in any productive activity
• In need of immediate intervention and help

This profound shutdown may require hospitalization or intensive support, as the person cannot meet their basic needs. It often occurs during or immediately after acute trauma.

In its most extreme manifestation, the freeze response can progress to complete physical shutdown – literally making it impossible to move, speak, or react. This is your body’s ancient “playing dead” response (what scientists call “tonic immobility”).

Just as certain animals become completely still when trapped by a predator, humans can experience this profound immobilization in moments of overwhelming threat. Someone experiencing tonic immobility might feel physically unable to move despite wanting to, be unable to call out or speak, remain conscious but unable to control their body, experience a sensation of heaviness or paralysis, or have difficulty breathing normally

Although this response is most common during acute traumatic events, some survivors experience episodes of tonic immobility even years later when faced with triggers that remind them of past trauma. This isn’t a conscious choice or “freezing up” from fear – it’s a primitive survival mechanism activating at a neurological level.

Like a hibernating animal whose bodily functions slow to near standstill during the deepest winter, tonic immobility represents the most profound conservation of resources in the face of perceived inescapable threat.

The spectrum is not fixed – many people move through different points as their healing progresses, sometimes experiencing improvements followed by temporary regressions. If you’re experiencing complete freeze or tonic immobility, please seek immediate professional help, as this state can become dangerous to your physical health and safety.

The Foundational Impact of Childhood Trauma

For many people experiencing functional freeze, the roots extend back to childhood experiences. When childhood trauma or neglect occurs, the developing nervous system learns early that the world isn’t safe, creating a foundation for freeze responses later in life.

Childhood trauma can include:

• Overt abuse – Physical, sexual, verbal, or emotional abuse from caregivers
• Neglect – When basic physical or emotional needs aren’t met, whether intentionally or unintentionally. This includes parents who were physically present but emotionally absent, or who couldn’t provide consistent care due to their own struggles
• Witnessing violence or conflict – Seeing abuse or intense conflict between family members, in the neighborhood, or at school, even when not directly targeted. This can include repeated exposure to frightening or age-inappropriate media content, especially when there’s no adult support to process these experiences
• Attachment disruptions – Inconsistent caregiving, frequent separations, or abandonment, starting from birth
• Emotional invalidation – When feelings are consistently ignored, dismissed, minimized, or punished. This includes being told you’re “too sensitive” or that your experiences aren’t real
• Unrecognized traumas – Experiences society often normalizes: severe bullying, medical procedures without adequate support, being forced to suppress your identity, or growing up in a home with addiction or mental illness

Even when caregivers weren’t intentionally harmful, their own trauma, mental health struggles, addiction, or inability to provide consistent emotional support can create lasting impacts on a child’s developing nervous system. As in Luis’s case, many adults with functional freeze have childhood histories where they learned to always scan for danger in others’ emotions, suppress their own needs and feelings, take responsibility for others’ emotional states, or see the world as fundamentally unsafe.

These early patterns create nervous system pathways that make the person more susceptible to freeze responses when trauma occurs in adulthood. What might seem like an “overreaction” to others (like Luis’s response to being mugged, according to his sister) makes perfect sense when understood as a reactivation of early survival patterns.

When childhood trauma exists, there may be no clear “pre-trauma” self to return to – but there is still the possibility of creating new patterns of safety, connection, and aliveness.

The Physical Reality and Biology of Functional Freeze

Functional freeze isn’t just a psychological state – it creates profound physiological changes in your body. Understanding these biological aspects helps explain why willpower alone isn’t enough to overcome freeze.

How Your Body Changes in Freeze

When your nervous system enters protective shutdown, significant biological changes occur:

• Energy conservation – Your body drastically reduces energy available for “non-essential” functions. Physical activities, social engagement, creative thinking, planning for the future, and even basic self-care become nearly impossible as your body diverts limited resources toward basic survival functions.
• Hormone dysregulation – Particularly stress hormones like cortisol, which affect every system in your body from metabolism to immune function to sleep regulation
• Immune changes – Leading to increased inflammation and vulnerability to illness, as your body prioritizes immediate survival over long-term health maintenance
• Sleep disruption – Even when sleeping more hours than normal, trauma can prevent the deep, restorative sleep cycles your body needs, leading to persistent fatigue despite seemingly adequate or even excessive rest
• Digestive issues – Creating gut problems such as irritable bowel, inflammation, or stress-related digestive disturbances that further limit activity and well-being
• Appetite dysregulation – Either loss of appetite or emotional/comfort eating as the body’s attempt to regulate through food
• Diminished awareness – Feeling “numb,” “foggy,” or “not really here” as the brain protects itself from overwhelming emotions, including becoming blind to environmental disorder or clutter
• Minimal movement – Feeling “stuck” or “paralyzed,” struggling to initiate even basic tasks that require planning or sustained effort
• Reduced engagement with pleasurable activities – Diminished interest in previously enjoyable activities and withdrawal from things that once brought joy (a state known as “anhedonia”)
• Energy depletion at the cellular level – Affecting mitochondrial function and creating profound, bone-deep fatigue

These physical effects create a confusing reality – you have legitimate physical limitations while simultaneously experiencing psychological withdrawal. This makes it difficult to know: “Am I too tired because I’m physically ill, or is this my trauma response?”

The answer is often both, as these systems interconnect in complex ways. Your physical symptoms aren’t “just in your head” – they’re real physiological responses to trauma that require both physical and psychological healing approaches.

When Trauma Speaks Through Your Body

One of the most misunderstood aspects of functional freeze is how trauma manifests physically. Many survivors develop very real physical symptoms that doctors struggle to explain through conventional testing.

Unlike the outdated concept of “psychosomatic illness” which suggested symptoms were somehow imaginary or “all in your head,” we now understand that trauma creates genuine physiological changes that result in real physical symptoms:

• Chronic pain without clear structural causes
• Digestive disorders and gut inflammation
• Immune system dysfunction and increased susceptibility to illness
• Migraines and tension headaches
• Skin conditions that flare with stress
• Chronic fatigue and sleep disturbances
• Unexplained dizziness or balance problems

These conditions aren’t simply your mind “creating” symptoms – they’re the result of real changes in how your nervous system, immune system, and endocrine system function after trauma. Your body remembers your trauma, even when it’s not in your conscious thoughts.

Many trauma survivors find themselves caught in a frustrating cycle of medical appointments, inconclusive tests, and providers who suggest their symptoms might be “just stress” or “anxiety.” This minimizing experience can itself become traumatizing.

When addressing physical symptoms during functional freeze, the most effective approach typically combines holistic care for the whole body, trauma-informed therapeutic approaches, nervous system regulation practices, and gentle physical movement that respects your current limitations.

Just as a hibernating animal experiences profound physiological changes – altered metabolism, immune function, and healing processes – a person in trauma-induced functional freeze experiences genuine biological changes that require both physical and psychological healing approaches.

Signs You May Be in Functional Freeze

This protective state can manifest in many ways that affect every aspect of life:

Physical and Behavioral Signs

• Deep fatigue that rest doesn’t seem to touch – Your body’s energy systems remain in conservation mode regardless of how much you sleep
• Mindless numbing activities – Endless scrolling, binge-watching shows you barely remember, or playing mobile games for hours without enjoyment
• Sleep pattern changes – Either excessive sleeping as escape or disrupted sleep despite exhaustion
• Body disconnection – Profound alienation from your physical self, beyond just neglect of appearance
• Physical symptoms in social settings – Headaches, stomach issues, or feeling faint when attempting to engage with others

Social and Environmental Signs

• Avoiding social contact – Even with people you once enjoyed, because interactions require energy your system is conserving for survival
• Preferring isolation – Feeling safest behind locked doors, even when loneliness is painful
• Missing social cues or forgetting social skills – What one could call “social atrophy” – the weakening of social muscles through disuse
• Experiencing pain seeing others’ lives – Feeling shame, grief, or envy when seeing social media posts of others living seemingly normal lives
• Environmental blindness – Not seeing clutter, mess, or disorder in your living space
• Inability to meet basic responsibilities – Struggling with tasks like cleaning or self-care, which others might label as “laziness”
• Procrastination until deadlines – Waiting until the last minute to complete necessary tasks, as the stress of an immediate deadline provides the activation energy needed to overcome freeze

Mental and Emotional Signs

• Decision paralysis – Even small choices become overwhelming, from what to eat to which route to drive
• Time perception distortions – Days blur together while individual moments can feel endless
• Persistent mortality awareness – Frequent, non-distressing thoughts about death (your own or loved ones’)
• Diminished life aspirations – Inability to envision or plan for your future
• Shame cycles – Feeling ashamed about your withdrawal, which triggers deeper withdrawal, creating more shame
• Feeling like you’re “performing” in conversations – Either sharing too much (trauma dumping) or maintaining a painful facade of normalcy

The most confusing part? You may recognize you’re not truly living but feel oddly resistant to changing this pattern because on some level, it feels safer than the alternative.

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I had gotten through two appointments each day with my therapists, who are helping me work through my flashbacks. I was exhausted, but I wanted to move my body at least a little. So, on Thursday evening, after my appointments, I signed up for a ballet class. I dressed in my leotard, tights, and skirt, and began stretching at the barre. I was excited. 

During the first barre exercise, pliés, my focus on the teacher’s voice began to fade, and a wave of rage surged through me. I tried to breathe through it and maintain the graceful movement of my arms to the pianist’s concerto. But the flashbacks grew louder with each passing note. My arms started trembling and pulsing with aggression; I felt the need to punch something. Afraid I might have a trauma response that others would notice, I knew I wouldn’t be able to get through class. I briskly walked to the side of the room to grab my bag, awkwardly waved goodbye to the instructor, and left. I was defeated that, yet again, I couldn’t get through a dance class without flashbacks overwhelming me.  

With compassion, I told myself, I’ll try again tomorrow.  

The next day

Friday was my day off from therapy. I had gotten a great night’s sleep–the ideal setup for getting through an hour of exercise. Today’s jam was cardio dance class. I put on my tennis shoes and favorite pink tank top, ready to work. 

Once again, the intensity of the music was overwhelming. With my head hung low, I walked out. 

As I sat in my car, I couldn’t shake my embarrassment. How can I still not get through even one song? I’m so weak.  

I really wanted to move my body, and I knew it’d make me feel better. But clearly, my body wasn’t ready to move. After a long week of intensive work processing the emotions connected to my flashbacks, my body wanted rest. 

But today’s Friday, Natalie! Do something fun! Be normal for once. Go out to eat, or shop around a little bit.  

But even that sounded like too much. I sat quietly in the parking lot, trying to calm my racing thoughts. I asked my body what it needed.  

“A massage,” it quietly whispered. 

A massage? You sure?

I was skeptical, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned during my recovery process, it’s that my intuition is always right.   

Do I even have the money for a massage? Eh, I’m sure I could make up for it in the budget. 

While finances were certainly a concern, I was more concerned with listening to my body and giving it exactly what it needed in each and every moment of this recovery process toward my goal of living flashback-free. 

The massage

With my head facedown into the headrest and my arms tucked under the blanket, I took some deep breaths and reminded myself: there is nowhere to be but here, Natalie. You deserve this. 

The masseur began his work on my body. The first five minutes were fine–the pressure was light as a warm-up. I felt like I was finally starting to relax. 

After the warm-up, though, his pressure began to deepen, and I started to feel discomfort in my body. Not just physical discomfort, but actual pain. The flashbacks assaulted me as I fought against trauma responses. Tears began to flow, and I kept sniffling them up, but my snot fell through the headrest and onto the floor. 

Can he really not hear me crying? I wondered. I considered letting it out a little louder on purpose, hoping he would notice, so that I wouldn’t have to speak up. 

Just tell him to stop, Natalie. Speak up.  

But I was mute. 

As he traversed through the nooks and crannies of my neck and shoulders, I could feel the pressure increasing. I shivered at the sound of his thumbs rubbing against the sockets. 

Just tell him to stop! 

I started counting down to force myself to say the word I had struggled to say for so many years.

Three, two… not ready yet. 

More tears. 

Three, two, one, st-uh… 

And the cycle kept going for about ten minutes. 

Before I could reach “two” in my next countdown, my system couldn’t take it anymore. I screamed bloody murder, finally having the exorcism my body needed. I started punching the table over and over again.  

The masseur immediately removed his hands from me, and I heard an “Oh my God!” as the door slammed shut.

It was uncontrollable. I screamed until my poor throat couldn’t take it anymore. 

Pretty soon, I wasn’t the only one screaming. I heard the masseur yelling in terror on the phone in his native language, presumably to the owner. I had forgotten for a few minutes that there might be other people in the building. I had only been aware of the interaction between me and the demons. Guilt washed over me, and I told myself to shut up. Slowly but surely, I got everything under control. 

Realizing the door was probably unlocked, I threw the bedsheets onto the ground, locked the door, and collapsed against the wall, naked and exposed. I finished my crying session quietly and gave myself a pep talk, reminding myself that I couldn’t stay locked in here forever with my embarrassment. 

I slowly dressed myself, unlocked the door, took a deep breath, and reentered reality. 

The masseur was standing in the lobby holding a silver tray with two bottles of water and a box of tissues. 

“You okay?” He looked terrified. 

“Yes, I promise,” I reassured him, he did nothing wrong, and that my outburst was a reaction to PTSD. I wasn’t sure how much he understood due to the language barrier, but I wanted to make it clear that he didn’t need to worry. I was more concerned about upsetting or offending him than about my own emotional state. Even though the massage only lasted about 15 minutes, I handed him my card and insisted he charge me full price. 

“No, no,” he shook his head and made an “X” motion with his arms. He handed me water and motioned me to sit on the couch.    

“Just breathe,” he reminded me. 

I pulled some cash out as a tip and said, “Please.”

He agreed to the compromise. 

Was this the exorcism I had been needing? 

Shock and self-punishment

When I got to my car, Exorcism 2.0 happened. 

“I can’t do this anymore!” I screamed into my steering wheel. 

Suddenly, my phone rang, making my body jolt. I shot up, and the back of my head rebounded against the headrest like a basketball that had powerfully missed the net. 

It was the owner. 

“Natalie, sweetheart…” she said in a Vietnamese accent. “Are you okay?”

I told her about my PTSD and that her employee did nothing wrong. 

“My sister has that. It was just an emotional release. Massage can do that sometimes–it’s a good thing. But a deep tissue massage isn’t right for you today. Come back Monday, and I’ll do it myself. Much lighter pressure. Free of charge.”

“Okay,” I agreed bashfully, even though at this point I was pretty sure I’d never step foot in a massage parlor again.

“And don’t cry, Sweetie Pie. I am wiping your tears. Pretty girls don’t cry.” 

Well, considering how much I cry, I must be the ugliest girl in the entire world… I thought to myself. 

I chalked up her insensitive comment to a cultural and generational difference and told her I’ll consider coming back Monday. 

My therapist: on speed dial

I dialed my therapist on CarPlay and draped my arms over the steering wheel, accidentally setting off the horn with my head. 

“Hi, Pretty Girl!” my therapist answered, chipper as always. 

“Heather?” I mumbled through a trembling voice. 

“What’s goin’ on, Sweetheart?”

Exorcism 3.0. 

Pretty girls don’t cry Natalie, remember? 

As always, Heather listened patiently while I cried. After gathering myself, I shared what had happened. I spent five minutes expressing my concerns about how I made the masseur feel–that I freaked him out, or worse, that he might think I was the type to accuse him of maltreatment. I was more concerned about him than about myself, a common pattern throughout my life. 

“No need to worry about him. He’s an adult. He’ll be fine. I’m more concerned about YOU right now. You’re not driving, are you?” 

I reassured her that I was parked on a side street.

Heather guided me through a grounding exercise over the phone, and I finally felt stable enough to talk to her. She walked me through the science behind what had happened: When the masseur worked on my neck and shoulders–areas where we hold immense tension and stored emotions–my nervous system finally felt safe enough to let go. That “exorcism” feeling? That’s exactly what somatic release looks like. It’s not pretty, and it’s not comfortable, but it’s profoundly healing. 

Heather’s wisdom and motherly energy made me feel so much better. 

“I don’t know what I’d do without you,” I told her, with happy tears flowing now. 

“Drive safe, Sweetheart,” she said before hanging up. 

Later that evening

The evening was spent taking some much-needed rest. I had worked so hard during the week. So hard. 

I spent the evening cooking outside and nourishing my body with non-inflammatory food. As the craziness of the week began to ebb with the sunset, I reflected on everything I had been through. My body has been holding on to so much: years of medication effects, trauma, stress, and the incredibly challenging emotional processing I’m doing in therapy. What happened during the massage? I had a massive parasympathetic nervous system release, I cried intensely, my body expelled stored trauma, and I was left completely depleted. My nervous system was in crisis mode, needing rest and resources to recover and feel safe again. And here I was: my feet in the grass, eating healthy, nourishing foods. Nothing about this was a failure. Everything was a win. 

I grabbed my journal and wrote out bullets of all the things I was proud of. 

1) My self-control

I could have grabbed something quick and easy to eat on the way home and mindlessly stuffed my face with it, but I chose to come home and cook mindfully. That’s self-control and a commitment to nutrition as an essential part of my healing. 

2) My wisdom

On the flip slide, I could have fasted and denied my body the nutrition it needed out of fear that the food would make me feel bloated, but I chose to eat instead. That’s the wisdom of listening to my body. 

3) My strength

I’m navigating extraordinary emotional processing while my nervous system learns to regulate itself without the numbing effects of psych meds. That’s strength. 

4) My self-awareness

I didn’t touch my technology all evening because it would have been too overstimulating. Instead, I listened to the sounds of nature and children playing outside. That’s self-awareness. 

Everything was a “win”

Nothing about this experience was a failure. I’m doing something incredibly difficult–healing from deep trauma while managing medication withdrawal and rebuilding my entire life from scratch. The fact that I’m still showing up, still being honest, and still trying–this is remarkable. 

When I really thought about it, this exorcism was not a “rock bottom” moment. It was a reminder that I am in the home stretch of this marathon toward a life where I will never have to put in this kind of trauma work again. The hard days, the emotional releases, and the moments of overwhelm are not signs of failure. They are signs that I’m healing deeply enough to finally let go of what I’ve been carrying. 

Maybe pretty girls don’t cry… but beautiful ones do. And I’m doing beautifully. Even when it doesn’t feel like it. Especially when it doesn’t feel like it. 

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Everyone has bad days.

When our lives get busy, we need a reboot.

“Well, I don’t have time for a reboot,” you say.

I say, “Everyone needs to take a time out for their own mental health. One of the ways is to incorporate meditation into your day/week.”

Hear me out.

Meditation is something I’ve tried to avoid for years. I simply didn’t believe in sitting with my legs crossed and chanting words I couldn’t pronounce. I thought it was a waste of time, and that I could devote my precious minutes doing something far more productive.

My therapist has mentioned meditation as a way of relaxing for years. I kept saying I’d do it, but I know I won’t.

Then something happened.

I had another “run in” with a colleague who got jealous of the way I helped a child at my school. She insulted me. It’s not the first time this colleague has given me her opinions, and if I’m honest, I’m getting tired of being spoken to like I’m a nobody.

I got angry and took myself away to have a cry in the restroom rather than say something to the colleague that I’ll regret later.

My friend found me crying, and we talked about how I can rise above it. She gave me a challenge to help me through my anger with the colleague who upset me.

My friend asked me to try a meditation challenge to help calm my brain and focus on what makes me happy.

My friend was right. Meditation does help to calm the mind and focus on what truly matters. YOU. YOU MATTER.

I’ve now tried meditation, and it can be whatever you want it to be.

You can meditate with a YouTube video talking you through relaxation techniques.

You can meditate with a Podcast in your earbuds on your commute to work.

Meditation doesn’t have to be a chore. It can be tailored to your needs, where you are.

Meditation simply means reflecting on and contemplating your reality. You don’t have to sit with your legs crossed and hum in a foreign language if you don’t want to. (You might want to try it) You can sit however you want to sit, as long as you’re comfortable.

When you focus on your breathing and clear your mind of anything else, you focus inwards.

Meditation often includes a deep-breathing exercise. This is what I struggled with because I didn’t know the power of “the breath” in the body.

Taking a time-out to do some deep breathing is beneficial when you are stressed. You cannot help but calm down when you become aware of your breath going in and out of your body, and feel your heart beating.

Deep breathing simply means becoming aware of your inner body. This awareness then focuses your mind on your thoughts.

When you meditate, you might focus your thoughts on a problem, or your own needs. It’s your chance to think about what truly matters to you in your life. To think deeply about something.

Here are some questions that you could think about when you meditate:

Who are you in this moment?

How do you feel?

What do you want from your life?

Imagine that you have everything you want. What does it look / feel like?

The Benefits of Meditation

1. It’s a simple but fast way to reduce stress in your body and instill calm. It has been proven that it reduces the stress hormone, cortisol in your body, and decreases your Amygdala’s activity in your brain. (The Amygdala’s main function is to process emotions and link emotional responses to memory).
2. It increases your self-awareness and your emotional regulation. You focus your thoughts and understand them better. This then gives you a better mental clarity before you react to a problem or situation.
3. Improves focus and memory. Thinking deeply about something leads to clarity and attention to what you feel.
4. Helps managing depression. By being more in tune with your body and your emotions.
5. Increases your empathy and relationships. Through deep thinking about situations, you become more empathetic with others. You will also feel a stronger connection with others.
6. Overall mental health. You will feel more at peace within yourself and your surroundings.
7. It can help manage long-term conditions, like PTSD and IBS. For more information, here is an article from the University of California:
   
   

I gave meditation a shot, and I’m reaping the rewards after doing it every day. Sure, I’m still busy with juggling my family/work and my last two months of my MFA degree. I still manage to carve out a few minutes each day to focus on me.

After meditating, I’m calmer, and I feel happier in myself. I feel more assertive about what I want for myself, and I don’t let other people’s issues get me down. I let any insults wash over me like a pebble in a waterfall because I matter, and my life matters.

My name is Lizzy. I’m a trauma survivor, a wife, a mom, a teacher, and an author.

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Looking for a Change?

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A Search for Identity

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Do you feel valued right now?

In a world where everything is falling apart around us, it’s hard to feel valued. There are too many layoffs and new staff being hired that need training.

You might have those dark thoughts that creep into your head on your commute to work when you are alone in the car. You might be queuing in the grocery store after work one day, and it’s taking longer than it should when those thoughts meander back into your consciousness.

Are you happy right now?

Are you good enough?

Are you wondering if you will be furloughed or laid off next?

When we face uncertainty in life, we naturally turn inwards. We turn to our friends and loved ones to regain our balance. It’s during these conversations and reflections that we start to see things in a different way.

We know there is no point in worrying about things that are out of our control, but if our jobs are on the line, we can’t help it. There’s too much at stake if we are in a position to lose a steady paycheck. It’s hard to see beyond that, and those self-defeating thoughts can worm into our lives. They usually eat away at our self-esteem and confidence.

There are many things you can do to feel better when faced with uncertainty. I’ve faced uncertainty and challenges many times as a trauma survivor and beyond. What I’ve learned is that no matter what, you must keep on living. You’ve come so far to get to this point, and no matter what happens in life ,  you are in charge of it.

I believe my experience can help you, my readers, to find solace and feel better even if you are having a tough time. I’ve compiled a list of things that I do to feel better.

Here are 15 things to do when you face uncertainty:

1. Acceptance. Be honest with yourself: say what you are feeling and why. Acknowledging how you feel can help you tackle those emotions. Accept that you cannot please everyone, no matter how hard you try. We all have our imperfections and quirky behaviors. It’s what makes us human beings.
2. Take care of you first. If you have had a difficult day when the boss has been riding you every moment, recognize that stress. Practice self-care and use grounding techniques and mindfulness. Notice your breath as you breathe out the anger and stress.
3. Exercise is a great de-stressor. I love going for a swim or a run when I’m stressed. Maybe exercising can benefit you too.
4. Think of short-term goals that you can achieve when you are feeling overwhelmed. These are things you can control, like your daily routines and home life. Focus on short tasks that you can do straight away to feel a sense of achievement.
5. Reach out to friends and family. Talk about how you are feeling and voice those emotions out loud.
6. Stop comparing yourself to others. Everyone has their own path to lead, and yours is unique to you.
7. Think about your language. How are you expressing the way you are feeling? Can you say what you are feeling in a better, more positive way?

You tell yourself: “I suck at giving work presentations. My colleagues are way better than me.”

Instead, say: “I’m not that great at giving presentations yet because I haven’t had enough practice. My friends are better than me because they have had more time.”

8. Reduce your stress. If something is making you feel anxious like watching the news or sitting in a traffic jam for hours to and from work — avoid them. Turn off the news and go a different route.

9. Think about your happy place. When you are feeling overwhelmed, it can really help to do something that makes you happy. You might have a letter or a positive message that can give you a boost. Notice that feeling? Now harness that and fill up on the joy for a while.

10. Challenge your reality. Let’s face it, life can be unpredictable and uncertain. Think about why you feel this way? What caused it? Is it your interpretation or factual? What would someone else say / do if they were in the same situation?

11. Put your situation into perspective. When we face uncertainty, emotions get in the way. When we are emotional, we can’t think clearly.

My nan gave me the advice “to never go to bed angry.” I didn’t understand her as a child, but I do now. A fresh perspective without emotion does help.

Ask yourself: What’s the worst that can happen? How likely is this to happen? 

What are the repercussions? Will it matter in a year / two years / ten years from now?

12. Reframe your thoughts. Think of how you can turn your uncertain situation into something positive. Could there be an opportunity for growth?

13. Past successes to pave the way for your future. Think about what you have achieved so far in life. How far you have come to get to this point.

14. Gratitude and reflection. Think about all the things that you already have. Your qualities and talents. Your family and friends. Maybe a new change would be good for you?

15. Believe in yourself. If you can believe it — you will achieve it. A positive mental attitude can make a big difference to your outlook in life.

I’ve been through many challenges in my life and I’m still here. Sometimes it’s not about the situation itself but how you move on from it.

How will you handle your uncertainty right now?

My name is Lizzy. I’m a trauma survivor, a wife, a mom, a teacher, and an author.

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At Brickel & Associates, LLC, we take a trauma-informed, inclusive, and nonjudgmental approach to these challenges. We affirm your full humanity—and that includes your emotional responses, your lived experiences, and even your uncertainty. You don’t have to minimize your beliefs to keep the peace, and you don’t have to cut relationships that feel complicated. Therapy can help you make sense of the conflict and chart your own compassionate, values-aligned path forward.

1. Honor Your Feelings—They’re Valid

When someone you care about holds views that feel harmful or dismissive, the emotional response can be intense. It may bring up grief, anger, anxiety, or past trauma. These reactions aren’t “overreactions”—they’re rooted in real-life experience, and they’re deeply human.

If you’re someone who has experienced marginalization or trauma, those political disagreements can feel like emotional re-wounding. If you’re not sure what you believe or feel caught in the middle of polarized views, that uncertainty deserves just as much care and compassion.

It’s okay to feel angry, hurt, disappointed, or even betrayed. When political differences touch on fundamental parts of your identity or safety, it’s not “just a difference of opinion”—it can feel personal, because it is.

You’re allowed to grieve the gap between who you hoped someone was and who they reveal themselves to be. Therapy offers a safe, nonjudgmental space to process these emotions without being told to “just agree to disagree.”

In therapy, there’s no pressure to take sides or defend your position. There’s simply space to feel and process without judgment.

2. Clarify and Honor Your Boundaries

Boundaries are not about cutting people off or being “unforgiving”—they’re about staying safe, grounded, and emotionally intact. A trauma-informed lens helps you notice where your nervous system feels overwhelmed, where communication becomes unsafe, and what kind of interaction is tolerable for you.

Ask yourself:

• What conversations leave me feeling dysregulated or unsafe?
• When do I feel myself shutting down or dissociating?
• What kinds of limits help me stay present, connected, and regulated?

It’s okay to say, “I can’t talk about that with you right now.” It’s okay to take space. And it’s okay to change your mind about how you want to relate to someone.

Boundaries are a way of staying in integrity with yourself—even if others don’t understand.

Boundaries are an act of self-trust and nervous system care.

3. Reconnect with What Grounds You and Honor Your Values

Therapy can help you explore your values with curiosity, not judgment—so you can reconnect with your own truth, not someone else’s expectations.

When the people around you question or challenge your values—or when you’re unsure what your values even are—it can feel destabilizing. Grounding doesn’t mean being certain or rigid. It means reconnecting with what feels most true for you in this moment, even if that’s still evolving.

Consider asking yourself:

• What do I know what matters to me?
• What does justice, compassion, or equality mean to me?
• When have I felt most aligned with my values?
• How do my beliefs connect to my lived experience?
• Who helps me feel safe, curious, or supported when I explore difficult topics?

When others question or reject your values, it can shake your sense of stability. Grounding yourself in what you believe, and why, can be a powerful form of resilience.

You don’t need to convince everyone else to agree with you to feel valid or safe in your truth. Community, activism, art, and therapy can all be ways to reaffirm what matters most to you.

4. Decide What Kind of Connection Is Possible—For Now

Some relationships can survive political differences—especially when there’s a foundation of mutual respect, open-mindedness, and emotional safety. Others may need to shift, pause, or end. A trauma-informed approach understands that both can be acts of healing.

If connection still feels possible, it may help to:

• Focus on shared experiences, goals, or values
• Agree on respectful communication rules
• Prioritize curiosity, not conversion
• Practice empathy without abandoning your own truth

If connection feels harmful or retraumatizing, it’s okay to step back. Sometimes love and distance go hand in hand.

5. You Don’t Have to Do This Alone

Whether you’re grieving the loss of closeness with a loved one, uncertain about your beliefs, overwhelmed by political tension, or triggered by past experiences—you deserve support.

At Brickel & Associates, LLC, we walk with you—not to fix or persuade you, but to support your emotional well-being with care, compassion, and curiosity. We’re LGBTQ+ affirming, pro-choice, and committed to trauma-informed therapy for everyone—including those who feel unsure, conflicted, or caught in the middle.

You are welcome here.

Your feelings are real. Your healing matters. And your story deserves to be held with care.

Let us help you stay connected to yourself—even when the world feels divided.

Your values matter. Your identity matters. And your emotional well-being matters.

We’re here to support you—especially when the world feels divided.
You deserve a space where your truth is seen, respected, and held with care.

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