Emotional flashbacks take a horrendous toll on those who experience them. To feel like you are in danger with all the emotions that accompany it, fear, anxiety, startle, and a myriad of other feelings without understanding where they are coming from is both frightening and debilitating.
This piece will delve deeper into emotional flashbacks and methods to defeat them.
CPTSD and Emotional Flashbacks
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) afflicts many people who were traumatized in childhood through more than one type of neglect or abuse (including narcissistic abuse). One of the defining features of CPTSD is emotional flashbacks.
Indeed, trauma theorists Judith Herman and PTSD researcher Bessel van der Kolk describe complex post-traumatic stress disorder as being “caused by prolonged, repeated trauma.”
Pete Walker, an M.A. in psychoanalysis, first coined the phrase emotional flashback to explain the horrific experience of feeling emotions that seem disconnected and out of place in the adult survivor’s current situation. He recognized the connection between CPTSD and emotional flashbacks.
Walker describes an emotional flashback as an “amygdala hijacking” forcing the survivor to relive the emotions they once felt in the past during a traumatic event without the benefit of knowing or remembering the memory associated with it. These emotions may include fear, despair, rage, sorrow, grief, and other strong emotions that emerge suddenly without warning after being triggered by something in the environment. Often survivors are clueless as to what these triggers are.
The intense emotions felt during an emotional flashback are often accompanied by toxic shame.
Using Self-Compassion to Defeat Emotional Flashbacks
Survivors of traumatic childhood suffered greatly when they were small at the hands of people they should have been able to trust. Pete Walker theorizes that because people in their lives, caregivers, parents, other adults who knew about the abuse but did nothing to stop it, survivors are looking to be rescued from their pain.
In his practice, Pete Walker attempts to reframe emotional flashbacks as messages from their wounded inner child that needs validation and help to get out of pain. He states that by painting emotional flashbacks as an inner child’s shouting and begging for their need of love, protection, and respect to be met. One critical component of meeting the inner child’s needs is to learn how to practice self-compassion.
Self-compassion is having compassion for oneself by respecting and acknowledging the emotional needs one has. Because of the developmental lack caused by childhood trauma, many survivors do not know how to practice self-compassion and must learn as adults how to love, nurture, and respect themselves.
Self-compassion is the cornerstone of healing from trauma and of ending the tragic experiences of emotional flashbacks. There are three main components to self-compassion, self-kindness, common humanity, and mindfulness.
Self-kindness involves becoming warm towards oneself when experiencing pain and recognizing areas where we have shortcomings. When we practice self-kindness, we do not ignore our shortcomings or hurt ourselves by using self-criticism.
Common humanity involves understanding and recognizing that suffering and pain are universal among all people and are not isolated to ourselves.
Mindfulness helps us take a balanced approach to our negative emotions to avoid exaggeration or suppression of them. By using non-judgmental mindfulness, negative thoughts about oneself are observed in a receptive mindset to observe our thoughts and feelings without trying to deny them. Mindfulness requires that we not overidentify with any mental or emotional thought patterns that cause adverse reactions by ending ruminations on those thoughts.
Brain Changes Through Psychotherapy and Emotional Flashbacks
In a previous post, we have already discussed some of the ways emotional flashbacks are caused by changes or damage done to children’s brains as they mature from repeated abuse and neglect. Susan Vaughan, an American author, psychiatrist, and psychoanalyst proposes in her book, The Talking Cure: The Science Behind Psychotherapy, believes that psychotherapy “literally changes the structure of the brain and in so doing alters the way feelings and ideas are interlinked in the mind.”
According to Vaughan’s theory, psychotherapy involves the client relating stories of how they feel about themselves and what happened in the past to them and the psychotherapist interpreting those narratives. Vaughn postulates the existence of a “story synthesizer” in the cerebral cortex in our brains, responding to the interpretations of the stories held in the person’s mind and actually reshaping the brain cells and possibly brain regions through neuroplasticity.
Neuroplasticity is the brain’s ability to continue to learn throughout a person’s lifetime because the brain remains “plastic” or malleable.
By learning through interactions with a psychotherapist a new way of interpreting what happened in childhood and its relation to how we feel today, emotional flashbacks are lessened and even eventually, in some cases, stopped altogether.
Managing Emotional Flashbacks
We have already discussed in a previous post the 13 steps to managing emotional flashbacks as proposed by Pete Walker, but it is such an important topic that I felt we should revisit it again.
Below you will find a list of the thirteen steps to managing emotional flashbacks as quoted from Pete Walker’s website.
- Say to yourself: “I am having a flashback.”
Flashbacks take us into a timeless part of the psyche that feels as helpless, hopeless, and surrounded by danger as we were in childhood. The feelings and sensations you are experiencing are memories that cannot hurt you now.
- Remind yourself: “I feel afraid, but I am not in danger!
I am safe now, here in the present.” Remember, you are now in the safety of the present, far from the danger of the past.
- Own your right/need to have boundaries.
Remind yourself that you do not have to allow anyone to mistreat you; you are free to leave dangerous situations and protest unfair behavior.
- Speak reassuringly to the Inner Child.
The child needs to know that you love her unconditionally- that she can come to you for comfort and protection when she feels lost and scared.
Deconstruct eternity thinking in childhood, fear and abandonment felt endless – a safer future was unimaginable.
- Remember, the flashback will pass as it has many times before.
Remind yourself that you are in an adult body with allies, skills, and resources to protect you that you never had as a child.
Feeling small and little is a sure sign of a flashback.
Ease back into your body. Fear launches us into ‘heady’ worrying or numbing and spacing out.
- Gently ask your body to Relax.
Feel each of your major muscle groups and softly encourage them to relax. Breathe deeply, find a safe place to soothe yourself, and allow yourself to feel the fear without reacting to it.
- Resist the Inner Critic’s (more about the Inner Critic in another post) Catastrophizing.
Use thought to stop the inner critic’s endless exaggeration of danger and constant planning to control the uncontrollable. Refuse to shame, hate, or abandon yourself. Channel the anger of self-attack into saying NO to unfair self-criticism.
Use thought substitution to replace negative thinking with a memorized list of your qualities and accomplishments.
- Allow yourself to grieve.
Flashbacks are opportunities to release old, unexpressed feelings of fear, hurt, and abandonment and to validate – and then soothe – the child’s experience of helplessness and hopelessness.
Healthy grieving can turn our tears into self-compassion and our anger into self-protection.
- Cultivate safe relationships and seek support.
Take time alone when you need it, but don’t let shame isolate you. Feeling shame doesn’t mean you are shameful. Educate your intimates about flashbacks and ask them to help you talk and feel your way through them.
- Learn to identify the types of triggers that lead to flashbacks.
Avoid unsafe people, places, activities, and triggering mental processes.
Practice preventive maintenance with these steps when triggering situations are unavoidable.
- Figure out what you are flashing back to.
Flashbacks are opportunities to discover, validate, and heal our wounds from past abuse and abandonment. They also point to our still unmet developmental needs and can provide motivation to get them met.
- Be patient with a slow recovery process.
It takes time in the present to become un-adrenalized and considerable time in the future to gradually decrease the intensity, duration, and frequency of flashbacks. Real recovery is a gradually progressive process (often two steps forward, one step back), not an attained salvation fantasy.
- Don’t beat yourself up for having a flashback.
Flashbacks happen without your consent and certainly without you wanting them to occur. So, why beat yourself up over something you have little control over.
By following the thirteen steps, one can mitigate much of the emotional pain and suffering from emotional flashbacks.
In Closing
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder is closely linked with the tremendously painful occurrences of emotional flashbacks. Both are caused by survivors experiencing repeated childhood maltreatment and neglect that leaves people living in the turmoil of its aftermath.
Self-compassion is vital if one is to overcome emotional flashbacks as it allows for changes not only to the person’s outlook on themselves but along with psychotherapy creates changes in the brain itself.
Although many people have told me they have had extremely harmful psychotherapist experiences, therapy remains the primary method of overcoming emotional flashbacks and complex post-traumatic stress disorder.
The greatest advice that anyone can give someone who experiences emotional flashbacks is to not give up hope. Emotional flashbacks are horrible, but once they are treated, life will be better, but it takes dedication to the process and hard work.
Never, ever, give up.
Your hardest times often lead to the greatest moments of your life. Keep going. Tough situations build strong people in the end.” ~ Roy T. Bennett
“Never stop dreaming, never stop believing,
never give up,
never stop trying, and
never stop learning.”
~ Roy T. Bennett
Reference
Poser, S. (1997). The Talking Cure: The Science Behind Psychotherapy Susan C. Vaughan. New York: GP Putnam’s Sons, 1997. 208 pp. Modern Psychoanalysis, 22(2), 229-237.
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OK. This is pretty good stuff. Nonetheless, any self respecting troubled mother fucker with cptsd is a natural outside the box thinker.
So, for the projections made here to hold up one must be able to apply the findings from outside the framework used. It is about testing the observer-observed principle.
What passes for hermaneutics is or can be a new industry group think based on the attachment to causal explanation and in reality is a new multilevel in positivist ideology.
Ever since Bateson the search for the missing link between (wo)man and nature has raged (this word is used deliberately) on, fuelling the silent hidden agenda of the insurance, pharmacy and wellness industry and the efforts to use trojan mice techniques to write the next algorithm. It is also about health productivity and gdp, but for who and who really gains?
So, let’s go half way away from the schemata and say that the development of requisite variety and variety attenuation, affine similarity transformation and fractal convolution as an integrative methodology can also account for ie understand the experience of cptsd.
Indeed, this if combined with Otto Laske and Roy Bhasker work on the Impulse to Freedom then there is a new model to buy or choose.
So, let’s go further away now. Let’s abandon the abnormal – normal duality entirely and head for a holism between the rational and irrational, let’s replace the blanket of Impulse (Bhasker) with Fear of Freedom (Fromm) and add in Sterns work on role multiplicity and the development of proprioception and appreception across a mix of socio-economic-political environments and the interplay between innate abstraction as an inevitable coping and development mechanism and the real world becomes mediated by the impulse towards or fear of an emergent self.
It is about the Anima-Amimus relationship and this, I feel, accounts for the more destructive aspects of cptsd. The schematics of the work in this article ignores this yet ironically advocates mindfulness without reference to the hungry ghosts.
As much as respect and admire the efforts made here I feel strongly that the industry desire and rage to perpetuate its own image will create an Animus Possession Paradox.
And not unlike psychiatry of old there will be no exit door.
And my last two penth is on mindfulness. The western take on this practice is, I find devoid (a deliberate word) of understanding the void or emptiness as spoke about in Pali. Consider, this extract from Aditta-pariyana Sutta, the Fire Discourse which is suited to the topic in hand. I will write it on Pali. The passage is about managing the arising of Animus Possession by an engagement with the Anima.
Kena adittam.
Adittam reg’aggina dos’aggina moh’aggina,
Adittam jatiya jara-maranena,
Sokehi paridevehi dukkhehi domanassehi upayadehi adittam vadami.
When learning breathing meditation, I have found, the breathing required to sing this verse is about mindfulness, proper.
Here disturbing arisings are countered by a repetition of verse and words that speak directly to you and your parts to stimulate the parts-whole communication to a holism.
Can you narrow down better solutions instead?
foot notes
when I refer to positivistic ideology and an internal rage at industry level am referring to the latency of the economic determinants that shape clinical behaviour.
there is no natural link between human behaviour and economics, the models of competitive behaviour are socially and politically constructed.
at this time the model in use rather than the one espoused is best captured by the Post Chicago School model. This is a socio-legal construct designed to stimulate competitive rivalry and disruption via technology. In the scenario and context of responses to cptsd the internal contradictions make an exit from a Animus Possession almost impossible – hence an increase in suicide and a focus on the female internalisation of male domination – Fromm covers this well but without a meta language that pushes past the inherent conservatism of pseudo – hermaneutics.
See Bojan Radej and Mojaca Golobic in Complex Society, In the Middle of the Middle World for an evaluation methodology worth its weight on gold.
my comments made otherwise
through brash and hawthorn,
on hands and knees,
crawling through hurt,
cuts deep so deep,
yet this blood
entwined flows free,
heart aches,
no breaks to find thee
said angels and ghouls don’t go there,
get to fuck this pain I’ll bear,
hold it with love and never dispair,
I’ll follow and follow until I find the love that hides,
soul light as guide,
calm anger to spare,
get to fuck and fuck right off,
death thought I’ve got the cut of your cloth,
and
menace
I match thee,
with axe,
one blow,
now let her go,
you have what I love,
so set her free.
If you’re in here,
I’ll find you,
hold you and care,
I will carry you in love
love to spare
one more
love did spread like star dust from above,
a shower did fall this way,
a story of love untold,
of bonds to be kept and earnest promises to be met,
a pledge of love from one to another,
nothing above,
nothing below,
a love so plain so plain to see,
fly high
hit the floor
smashed right through the fucking door,
this pledge of love,
is like no other,
loveyou
loveme
it’s so simple,
simple as can be,
nothing above,
nothing below,
head to toe,
in defiance of reality,
fly afore
fly no more
but fly
in an Anima Court
no judge shall sit
be in love
and
love shall breathe
breathe
through out
loveyou
loveme
it’s so simple,
simple as can be.
OK. Here I am again.
Stuck with myself.
Unable to distinguish between feeling hungry and being hungry through self neglect and a diminishing sense of self.
Definitely not in love with anything or anyone.
Numbed out again.
Tuesday night again.
So, just what is it that we learn?
What can’t I reach or see, understand or navigate?
If the physiologically driven determinants of trauma can be self managed why can’t I do it?
What is the pleasure-tension release trigger – I remain hungry and I don’t know what love is – a disruption of intentionality at the very core of being and self.
Or, so we’re led to believe.
What if, as with ousting of Reich, this barron and banishing landscape is actually created for us.
What are the ‘active and passive adaptations in this socioeconomic situation’ as Fromm described them.
Why, did Peggy Chiswell a nurenberg interpreter die homeless having been knocked down by a London bus. Why has it taken 10yrs for me to be finally on a list for help? And, why does practically everyone you know have debilitating stuff going on?
The scope of this article is not designed for these questions. Why?
If there is a value to the physiologically determination of trauma it must be textured and contextualised.
If not the Animus Possession Paradox and attendant hubris follows.
Advocates of systems dynamics would say this is a cluster of systems archetypes at work, others would say a broader notion of systems thinking and complexity thinking are needed too.
So, while I would never take away from the human and person effort gone in to this paper. Much more must be weighed and written in.
And, especially from lived experiences that drive the theory rather than be a determined product of it.