Losing My Marbles
Emotions, losing control, not being yourself. I kept feeling like it was something I did. Something I could undo or fix so everything would turn out alright. Unfortunately, things kept getting worse… In the first week, no one knew what was wrong. The only thing...
How This ‘Ted Lasso’ Theme Relates to My Complex PTSD Healing Journey
This article was originally published on The Mighty. “Ted Lasso” is not a TV show that I would have chosen to watch on my own. In fact, until it was recommended to me, I somehow hadn’t even heard of it. It’s the stuff of delicious irony that I know myself well enough...Impostor Syndrome and Self -Compassion
Impostor Syndrome occurs for all sorts of reasons and it pushes us to become extremely hard on ourselves. It also robs us of seeing ourselves: as human beings doing their best, just as they are. Thankfully, self-compassion can help us address the painful feeling of...A Change of Affection Part II – How A Trauma Bond is Formed
How A Trauma Bond is Formed Scaly grey snake heads with the dead black eyes of a reptile weaved back and forth. Bright red tongues darted to and fro. They covered the Uhaul. I couldn’t look away. Out on my daily walk with Tiny, the chihuahua, I pulled my wheelchair...
Sense of Safety As a Disabled Person
This blog originally posted at: https://powerfullypowerless.wordpress.com/2019/08/09/sense-of-safety-as-a-disabled-person/ Safety is the condition of being protected from or unlikely to cause danger, risk, or injury. There are many levels of safety, and many ways to...This Different Way of Seeing My C-PTSD Flight Response Blew My Mind
This article was originally Published on The Mighty. I opened my eyes and the first thought that popped in my head was: “I do not want to get out of bed.” The classic morning refrain for us countless many. After 40 minutes of arguing with myself, I pushed my way...The Tragedy of Never Feeling Safe
Growing up in a dysfunctional home, many who have developed complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) did not have the emotional or physical support they needed from their parents. Often, as children, survivors were left with an internal and eternal feeling of...
Attunement – A Lost Connection
I want to visit an older concept that relates to trauma in this blog. Intersubjectivity is a theory developed by Daniel Stern-a prominent American Psychiatrist and Psychoanalytic theorist in infant development. Stern wrote several seminal books that positively...